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The Story of a Heel: Notes on Memoir and Fiction

When memory fails us, fiction takes its place. Here, author Joel Agee discusses how memoir and fiction can intersect to tell a story.

When I was in high school in East Germany, a substitute teacher—not our usual boring drone, who had fallen ill—gave us an unusual homework assignment: “Write a story from your life. Let your reader know what happened and how you felt about it. Work on it over the weekend and bring it in on Monday.”

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The class erupted into a cacophony of protest: “It’s too hard! We’re not prepared! Does it have to be true?”

“It needn’t be true,” the teacher said, “but it should be believable, and it should be a story. I think you all know what a story is.”

“How long should it be?”

“Long enough to have a beginning, a middle, and an end.”

“I can do that in three sentences!”

“That’s very clever. I’ll make it more complicated. As you know, we have five senses. Try to bring them in: what you heard, what you felt, what you saw, what you smelled, what you tasted. And also, what you thought.”

“I can’t remember all that!”

“Oh, but you can imagine it.”

During recess, a classmate said to me: “This is easy for you. You’ve had an interesting life. You lived in Mexico; you came over here on a ship. My life is boring. I have no interesting stories to tell.”

I was astonished to hear that. “What about the Russian soldier who sliced off your heel?”

“Part of my heel. That’s true, but it was long ago, and I hardly remember it.”

“Was he trying to kill you?”

“I’m sure he was, but I got away. I was running into my house, and he was on horseback. He swung his sword at me in passing.”

“Well, there’s your story.”

“Yes, but that’s all there is to it.”

I thought of the five senses. “What did you see?”

“Nothing. I was just running.”

“What did you hear?”

“I don’t remember.”

The Story of a Heel: Notes on Memoir and Fiction

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My friend took my advice and wrote the story of how he lost part of his heel. He neither added nor subtracted anything. Conscientiously, he fulfilled the assignment of bringing in sense impressions by saying that he had no memory of anything visual beyond the sight of a man on a black horse galloping toward him and leaning sideways out of his saddle with a saber raised over his head; no memory of sounds, though there must have been gunfire and screams and the clatter of horses’ hooves; no memory of fire or the smell of smoke, though he knew several straw-thatched houses in the village burned down. Later, after the crisis had passed, there was pain. A doctor treated him with an antiseptic and bandaged the wound, and for a while he felt like a hero.

The teacher gave him a One—the east German equivalent of an A.

My friend’s approach represents one honorable way of telling a true story: as a factual, unembroidered report. But memory is notoriously unreliable. A great deal of psychological research has established that the simplest acts of remembering in daily life are in large part performed by the imagination. To put it more bluntly, what we think we remember is largely made up.

Did my friend, who was so intent on not imagining anything, really see a black horse? The image works a little too neatly as an archetypal representation of terror. Moreover, his assumptions about what he probably saw, heard, smelled, and sensed at the time are themselves proof that memory alone provides an insufficient record of a past event at best.

Instead of trying to screen out unconscious distortions as if for a juridical inquest, I think a more fruitful approach when writing from memory is to engage the imagination as an ally in search of a larger truth. My friend might have wondered at what he couldn’t remember, as he actually started to do with his list of forgotten sensory impressions. He might have included aspects of reality that were left unillumined by his rigorously objective approach. He might have described a typical day in his village—the games he played with other children, the air raid alarms, the radio propaganda, the atmosphere of impending catastrophe that was surely felt by everyone around him—and situated the terrible event in that context, complete with an evocation of sounds, sights, and smells he no longer remembered.

Unexpected questions might have arisen: Where did the man on the horse come from? What was his experience before he came to that German village? Was someone being avenged by the cut of that sword? And what about the boy’s father? I know nothing about him, but of course my friend did. Most likely the man had been drafted into the Wehrmacht. Had he fought on the Eastern front? Had he been captured? Was he in a prison camp? Or had he died in battle?

The Story of a Heel: Notes on Memoir and Fiction

Here I am, imagining a young novelist, 15 or 16 years old, part of whose heel was sliced off by a marauding Soviet cavallerist when he was a child, and who now wants to imagine everything there is to imagine and know about that incident. Everything? Sure, why not? The image of a hungry animal suggests itself, foraging for food after nightfall and finding that severed piece of flesh. A cat? It’s an unappealing thought, but not lacking in truth.

Let us liberate the word “truth” from the confines of verifiable fact. Let “true” mean “in accord with reality.” To writers of imaginative prose, the question presents itself again and again: Does this image, this scene, this character, ring true? That question pertains no matter whether we are writing fiction or memoir.

I call this approach the way of imaginative re-creation. I have written in this mode most of my life, culling from memory and daily experience hundreds of readymade stories, seemingly plotted by life as if by a great novelist, needing only a little pruning and some artful elaboration to make them complete.

My most recent book, The Stone World, was a new departure. As usual, I began with a memory, or rather with a photograph that substituted for a memory. The picture showed me at the age of six, lying on a stone terrace rolling a marble from one hand to the other. The knowledge that this child had once been myself fascinated me. What was it like to be him?

An idea proposed itself with an appeal I found irresistible: to project myself back into that little body and view his world, his parents, his friends, the inner and outer events of his life, not from memory—as I had almost no memories of that time—but through his eyes, from moment to moment, in the absolute present of his experience. A fiction, in other words, drawn from the depths of my own body’s knowledge of what it is to be in the world without prejudice and without fear.

Whether your medium is memoir or fiction, let your aim be to get at the truth. More often than not, the bare facts don’t suffice. You cannot do without imagination. Use it judiciously and with courage. Just don’t lie.

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