Well I don’t know how qualified I am to give critique, I’m feeling kind of down lately and my own work is suffering as well. However I will tell you this, without the explanation I was feeling an intense pain and regret. THe piece evoked feelings of loss, sorrow, and anger at the outcome. I was moved. Then I read your explanation and felt humbled. Yes I’ve got problems, we all got problems but nothing I’m going through is close to that kind of thing. My sympathies and hope that writing this and your book helps you to eventually heal.