flashgordon – 2008-05-29 3:41 PM
For me, if I’m procrastinating about something then I really don’t want to do it.
Hmmm. So, if I find myself doing the laundry (which I hate), emptying the dishwasher or making the bed instead of writing, then I really don’t want to write? As a new stay-at-home mom, I struggle with this very thing. I am learning what is meaningful and valuable in life, but I don’t think I always make the right choice. I am learning that having the perfect home is not meaningful, but writing something that impacts lives for the better is.
Sometimes, I choose to do housework over writing because I want to be the best mom and wife I can be, and I don’t want to live in a garbage dump. However, I really want to write instead of doing those things. So I wrestle with guilt – either I should be writing if I’m cleaning, and let my standards and the house go a bit, or I should be cleaning if I’m writing. I put off writing to do many things I think I SHOULD (cleaning is just one example), and at the end of the day, I often haven’t written as much as I said I would. But it doesn’t mean I don’t want to write. It’s a luxury.
Keeping myself motivated through some kind of support helps me make better choices. Again, I don’t know about paying someone, but I have several ‘mentors’ and encouragers in my life. They help me win the battle over the mundane and the temptation to be a Stepford wife.